HCG 43

My last shot was on Thursday (forgot to take the shot once), and this three days of being on the diet without the shot has been difficult. I have been really hungry and really depressed.

It turns out that I have my period again, so that is three periods during this forty-three days. It has wreaked havoc on my weight. I was down to 300.6, but bounced up to 301.8 and it has been that way for three days. I thought for sure I would reach my goal, to be under 300 pounds, but it is now iffy. Tomorrow is the last day of the five hundred-calorie diet, so I have until Monday morning to reach two hundred-and-something.

I will weigh and tape myself tomorrow and add it to this... forgot to tape, as I had to bounce out of bed and take off early.

I have many concerns about the "diet between the diet" phase of this. Number one, I have to work in some of the food that I have passed up; there is no way I could be on a perpetual diet for the next... let me guesstimate how long it will take... another five rounds or so of this.... that would be about another 380 days from now... a little over a year. As I have mentioned many times, "normal" is my goal, and to abstain from things that normal people eat for a year and a quarter is not normal; it has already caused a lot of anxiety, and it should not have to.

I am also concerned about the complexity of the diet, and the need for "medical food", which is really expensive. I will literally have to construct what I can and cannot eat every day. I have been using SparkPeople to figure out how to manage this complicated diet.

Another thing is that you cannot throw out your kitchen and suddenly eat the way you diet; the diet needs to fit how you already eat or else you will not follow it. I have grouped foods that our family normally eats, and have been fitting meals into the diet. Build-A-Nacho is very popular around our house, but it takes up over three quarters of my day's allowances, so I will have to mostly starve to have it.

If you are considering doing this, be prepared to spend a lot of money on stuff you need. You need over three pounds of protein a week, vegetables and fruits, which are also expensive, the no-calorie salad dressing that has saved my life is $5.00 for two to three days perhaps, and I should buy stock in Traditional Medicinals because I drink their tea (because I hate water), and that is a ton of money too. I have been very weak, so I have also spent easily over $100.00 on B-12, stuff for constipation, stuff to give me more energy, stuff to help my adrenals, etc. I feel very guilty when I see my husband eating spaghetti every day and my kids eating sandwiches every day to fund this.