HCG - Stabilization Diet Day 4

Finally, I broke the 300 pound barrier! As of this morning I am 299.8, and hoping for a little more tomorrow. I needed to pass that mark.

I am afraid to eat. It's crazy but it's true. This happened to me when I was bulimic too; I figure if I don't eat, I won't gain. I know in my head that yes I will lose weight, but I will make myself sick, but emotions don't care much for logic.

I talked to a friend at church who is thin because of this diet, and she reminded me that in the original protocol, after the injections you are supposed to increase calories but avoid carbs and sugar for three weeks of the six week break. I bought the Metagenics stuff only to find that it has 17 net carbs and 16 sugar per serving, so I don't want to use it. I use SparkPeople to track what I eat, and even with trying to avoid carbs, I have eaten between 30-40 carbs per day; with the medical stuff, that would double. The caloric intake has gotten a little better - I ate 776 calories yesterday (as opposed to 526 Tuesday and 646 Monday). I am trying to figure out what to eat that is compatible with me, and it is a very tough decision-making process.